Hi... so this is maybe a strange question. Or not. I tried looking this up online and couldn't find anything similiar.
Basically I was put on Wellbutrin in September, 150mg a day. I have had problems with depression for 15 years, since I was 13, but had never been medicated. I am an artist and was having the worst time concentrating on any new work, and was exhausted all the time. I wondered if I was ADHD-- or if tv commercials just made me THINK I was. I also had problems with compulsion as a teenager-- hair pulling, namely-- so my GP suggested I try Wellbutrin. Honestly, within a week, I felt a lot better-- more even keel. I was prone to fly off the handle before, and not so anymore. I could think more clearly. I was pretty happy-- and super excited about my libido kicking in, since it had been sucking on birth control.
Problem was, no libido ever came a'knockin'. This bothered my boyfriend, because I had kind of hyped up that supposed side-effect a lot. Due to some other issues with my birth control, I got off of it, and just waaaaited for the Wellbutrin to kick my libido in the ass. Never happened. 'Oh well', I figured, 'Maybe it doesn't happen to everyone'. I've been on it for months now, and recently, I've been reflecting and realized that not only do I ever have sex with my boyfriend, I don't WANT to. I mean, we get around to it sometimes, but I'm doing it kind of because I feel like a jerk for being so uninterested. And it's not that I'm not attracted to him. And it's not that I am attracted to anyone else-- I don't have any sexual feelings at all. What really struck me though, is that I've realized I become very annoyed and uncomfortable seeing couples exhibit affection, in real life, or even on tv.
Okay, sure, now I sound like a frigid ice queen! But I've also stopped talking to people on the phone-- friends I don't know SO well, I'm almost afraid to call them. I text everyone. I like going out and having fun but if I don't have an obligation to do so, I just sit on the couch, doing nothing. The only creature I am affectionate with is my dog. I am slowly becoming someone who doesn't want to interact with anyone anymore. It's alarming me, because I don't feel like this is who I am-- it's not who I used to be.
Could this be the Wellbutrin? I feel like I am slowly settling into that "fog" I always heard people talk about when they were talking about disliking or wanting to get off meds. I am aware they could be bigger symptoms that are perhaps growing too big for the Wellbutrin to tackle, but just wanted to know first, if anyone else had experienced this-- wanting nothing to do with anyone.
I want to want to kiss my boyfriend again or invite friends out for dinner... anything you know? But I'd rather just sit on the computer or stare at the tv. I'd rather be alone. I don't feel sad or have my moodswings. That's maybe what worries me the most about this.